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Coffee Is—

Coffee is science. Or at least I’d like to think it is. Coffee is turning over one stone and knowing the entire forest. Coffee is the process of cobbling together the bigger picture by studying each one of its parts. … Continue reading

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What I am Failing to Remember

I keep feeling like I’m on the cusp of remembering something, and everything I do in a given day contains bits and pieces of an overarching design that I need to recover. It’s like the feeling of a recurring dream, … Continue reading

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The Fast and the Furious 9: A Critical Review, or, How to Retcon Absolutely Anything

After finishing a long-term freelance assignment, it felt like the pressure had been lifted off my shoulders. I’ve had more time to relax and more attention to direct towards whatever project I might want to pursue. A little more time … Continue reading

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Staring at the End (Prose)

Mostly my frame of reference is at the edge of some yawning precipice, open throat of the Earth, and any spell of vertigo might send me tumbling off into the depths. There is a constant gravity in the off-kilter pull. … Continue reading

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Staring at the End

Mostly my frame of reference is at the edge of some yawning precipice, open throat of the Earth, and any spell of vertigo might send me tumbling off into the depths. A spinning tunnel, haunted house; constant feel of the … Continue reading

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Wasting Your Life

It’s not your life that you’re wasting. When someone tells you “you’re wasting your life” they’re wrong, or at least they’ve mislabeled something. There’s no essence to waste in your physical life; your biology is inconsequential on its own, an … Continue reading

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Stonelike

Fears. With eyes shut tight the heart rides waves of tension in my chest, squeeze of electric impulses. Tides of resistance swell and recede. My hero’s gone, and in his place stands but a cheerleader whose words remind me that … Continue reading

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Isolation, Artifacts

Sometimes it takes the whole world stopping to rediscover what you love. When things come to a grinding halt maybe you first glut yourself on the vices you’d used to distract yourself from misery. Maybe the very things you’d framed … Continue reading

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Boulders

  Tawmbout belief, gratitude, visualization. Buzzwords that I’ve typically spent a lot of time avoiding! Two days ago, while walking up to the Happies with Alex and Mae, I said in conversation how I’d like to focus on being a … Continue reading

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kaleidoscopes

the feelings that move in me like slow kaleidoscopes or the impressions of perfection that pierce my chest and make me melt like taffy, a bug tumbling in thick amber or a child who’s jumped into a pool shift all … Continue reading

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Perched

Do I love you because I am melancholy? Is it simply due to hours expended that I am expectant, waiting, entitled in my way, and you oblivious, or else unwilling— the cliff ahead we face yet you are turned away, … Continue reading

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Vision/Winter

She said I had a “distinct lack of vision for the future.” Maybe I had imagined “distinct,” channeling some ancient jargon on my elementary school report card, a long-lasting impression of shame I’d applied to myself as a functional adult. … Continue reading

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How to Fall in Love Completely

The first step is to invest in yourself. Become your own best friend, then your own boss, then your own stockbroker. Take risks. Risk it all—be silly, do stupid things, do everything. Do it with the desperation and conviction that … Continue reading

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Do I Dare Dream Again?

Do I dare start to dream again? Is it time to put all these woes and all these trivialities behind me? Do I once again sweep away all of the presumed things of importance to open up that space, crepuscular … Continue reading

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Geometry of Dreams

The things that I’ve dreamt about before are no longer relevant, no longer show up in my dreams—all the myriad places and happenings and locations portrayed in shimmering detail, my brain building tiny simulations geographic and geometric in its quest … Continue reading

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Alienation of the Self

As I get older, I find myself regarding my body with disbelief and incredulity. It seems that every time I see myself in the mirror I get further and further away from the mental image of myself that I hold … Continue reading

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Sandcastles/Spinning my wheels

If only they could see that none of these things scratch the surface, that all of the things I’ve done and all of the stories that I tell about myself are just hollow excuses, and they don’t really mean anything … Continue reading

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Time is on my Side

Time is on my side. The buds of spring appear before my very eyes; the leaves spread open in the sun for me to watch. They say the moment rests upon a razor’s edge, the past behind, the future gone— … Continue reading

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The Immersion of Memory

It’s dumping down outside, mazes of pockmarked rainwater running everywhere on the ground. My life is made up of memories—this shirt I got from a different place, reminding me of this person—every piece of clothing on my body is linked … Continue reading

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Rags to Riches; Belief

There’s no running from this anymore: My name is Joseph Clifford, and I am a king. There’s a lot I want to talk about in this post. Writing, life circumstances, dreams, commitments, wealth, finances, personal responsibility, and the difference between … Continue reading

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Do I Not Have This Same Love Still Within?

Do I not have this same love still within? This sweet pain of the heart—fledgling bird that once I fought for, bled for, as it flew into the outer world— is dead, a tragedy, for its enduring memory and my … Continue reading

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Falling

Falling in love is like autumn. Small, perceptible changes begin to take place—veins of color slowly changing shade—and one at a time the leaves begin to fall. The feeling, the anticipation of the event comes first; in crisp individual moments … Continue reading

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Reinvention

I woke up in a rage. The feeling of disgust as I saw everything around me arranged in exactly the same way. The old objects splayed around my room in their respective posts, the sun tilting through the windows as … Continue reading

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Media & Inspiration

I am trying very hard. They say that one only rises to the level of his or her expectations. That you’re only as good as the people you surround yourself with. That you are what you eat. I am trying … Continue reading

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Meditations on Death

The time before you hold your breath, the time leading up to the dive, is the most important part. You breathe with intention, in and out, a steady rhythm. The goal is to achieve absolute physiological calm, and this takes … Continue reading

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The Stone Within My Self

When I hold you, like a looking glass I bring your ghost to life. I condense your spirit into something tangible; it sparkles in the sun in my eye. When I hold you close I make you real, and take … Continue reading

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Seedlings

  How can I look back on you with anything but reverence? How to cast the eye of memory back to any of the times we shared and not be humbled, have my heart melt and the coil within my … Continue reading

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Adventure Club Manifesto

Our bodies are grossly capable. The human form, physical and spiritual, is incredible. We are equipped to deal with any possible hardship the world can throw at us: climbing a mountain, swimming in a flood, fighting off predators, running a … Continue reading

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The Call to Life, Pt. 2

Trying hard ain’t everything. When it comes to answering life’s call, there’s only one response: I will do it. I will be better, I will try harder. The immediacy of the call warrants this response. There is palpable tension that resides in … Continue reading

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The Call to Life

When all else is taken away, there remains only the basic urge, the never-ending summons, the constant pull towards the unknown and the insane excitement of new potential just coming into focus on the horizon. There is only the adventure … Continue reading

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How To Live (in this Shitshow)—Introduction

I. Living with Yourself II. Living in Society III. Living with Others The purpose of this book and the purpose of my life have long been one in the same. For the longest time I’ve been obsessed with the idea … Continue reading

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Top-Down Perspective

It’s helpful to keep a bird’s eye view on things. When I flew into Europe for the first time, after an entire year of fantasy and anticipation, I was amazed at how familiar it looked. “Temperate” was the word that … Continue reading

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Think Pretty Thoughts

I’ve been occupied recently with the question of the soul—is there more to the human being than raw materials? Do we live in a strictly materialist universe? Is there a soul hiding out in your body, or is it just … Continue reading

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Words from a Friend

Life that life man. Be your self man. Do those things man. Don’t be scared man. Climb those rocks man. Read those books man. Get that girl man. Write those words man. Do your best man. Try it all man. … Continue reading

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Walls of Resistance

“Your success is on the other side of the wall. Can’t jump over it, or go around it. You know what to do.” —The Rock Where does your success lie? Through the wall. Where do your dreams reside? Where is … Continue reading

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Doubt and the Butcher

Lay me to the bone, oh Lord, and vivisect me whole, should you exist. Cut through these layers of monotony, this sense of ought and should and duty, and let me know there lies, beneath the flesh, some metaphysics I … Continue reading

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Individualism

Better and more helpful than adopting any set of rules or particular ideology is to come to the realization that you are your own person; that your decisions and your desires are all in your best interest, that your own … Continue reading

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Based on a True Story

An angel graced me from above, and filled my life with love and light. She shone as fierce as any sun; I saw her star within so bright. The calm of many days has passed since she enmeshed herself with … Continue reading

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Habituation

I’ve long fancied the idea that, since we are all products of our environment, were our environment ever to change radically, we could become completely different people overnight. As you go about your day, think that you always open the … Continue reading

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HARD MODE++

I’ve often dreamed of the “hard levels.” Unlocked after beating the game, they are so difficult that they are a lifelong endeavor to complete. Bordering on impossible, they provide a precise balance of frustration and reward, obstacle and progression, pushing ever onward at the … Continue reading

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Delirium

Life is absurd. The connections within are sometimes so deep and so abundant that they start to become meaningless. The patently absurd becomes profound—watching The Expendables in a taqueria at 10PM. A white boy laughing at an explosion on a screen, surrounded by people … Continue reading

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On Veganism and Doing No Harm

Recently I’ve become vegan. It was a gradual change, starting with the desire to eat less meat, fueled by a discomfort towards opaque corporate practices; more specifically, towards the lack of transparency regarding food. I found out one of my friends had … Continue reading

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Life Update

After lots of pining away and wishing that things were just a little bit different in my life, I started to make some of those “big changes” I’ve been alluding to. In the beginning of June, I quit my job … Continue reading

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Big Changes and The Grind

If you want something, then give it time. It might not come to you as soon as you want it—this night, next week, this year. But it will come. Those who persist will win out. This is the long-distance run, … Continue reading

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Recognition, Recollection

I work downtown in a relatively small area. I see hundreds of faces on any given day. I live in the same town I went to college in, and there are old faces everywhere: anyone I recognize could be someone … Continue reading

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Higher Passions and the Commodification of Everything

There are times when I feel like I’m sleepwalking; during these times there’s an undercurrent of doubt, dread, and remorse. At any moment I worry that some circumstances will bring all of this underlying tension to the surface, causing a … Continue reading

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Dioramas

I’ve wanted to preserve the past in tiny little dioramas, the curator of some mental museum, impeccably aligned artifacts depicting experiences pristine, preserved out of time, so when I’d access them (later, always later) I could say yes, people have loved … Continue reading

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Object Identity

They say that every seven years, the cells in your body undergo a complete replacement. That is, compared to you seven years ago, there are none of the same cells in you that used to be there. By this logic, … Continue reading

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My Love like the Sun

My love like the sun shines from within, chemical compounds reacting, rebounding; the warmth spreads outwards and touches all of those who choose to venture out of doors. To love like a taser, cables spitting snakelike outwards, electric pitons piercing two … Continue reading

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Fever Dream

Wake up from this fever dream, and set the caged bird free. I thought I had a dream to live— But it was someone else’s dream!

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