Author Archives: jejunejesuit

Fever Dream

Wake up from this fever dream, and set the caged bird free. I thought I had a dream to live— But it was someone else’s dream!

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, Snippets | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Peace in the Afternoon

To sit and watch the world pass quietly by, to see people, quiet people, swimming through the sunlight in the afternoon, glinting and glimmering as they turn, this is peace. Detach from your desires, which would cause you pain and … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , , | Leave a comment

Visualization and Imagination

Recently, I’ve done a little bit of philosophical hedge-trimming, and I found one key concept that gives our lives a sense of magic. It imbues life with a creative spark, and its application is the difference between understanding and ignorance. … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Mountain Eyes

Let the boy go forth, and when he returns you will see the rolling plains and the green hills, the immensity of the mountains, the vast ocean reflected back in his hazel eyes and the wind in his tousled hair. … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Snippets | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Rain

I love the rain, and I love the cold. I walked home from work late at night last week, after the storm, and I felt at peace. The wind was blowing cold, carrying wet air from the ocean, and the drizzle … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, great | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Strength like a Tiger

Be like a tiger in your strength, with muscles ever rippling in the sun, ever aware—every movement, every motion strong, yet graceful and effortless. Be like a tiger in the effort that you use— just enough. Be fierce when it … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Years

I am often afraid that the years will leave me. If I stop pursuing, if I take a break, someone will catch up to me, proving me fraud, and all the capacity that’s come to me over the years will … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, great | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Compassion

Sometimes I picture my compassion as a small bubble residing in the stomach, a moist expansive thing which is too cloistered most of the time. Sometimes my breath makes it bigger, filling up inside me like a hot air balloon. … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, Snippets | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sea Caves

There are caves hidden within each man, very deep caves, which have been carved into the stone of his soul as the water carves when it hits the cliff at shore’s edge. When the waves roll in they crash through … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

DO IT RIGHT NOW

I’ll cut to the chase: you will never get anything done unless you start doing it right now. This very moment. Immediately. I’m serious! Your intentions, your goals, the things you want to do or think about doing all the … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

The Shakedown

In my dreams, everything falls down around me. I try to hold it all together, but I can’t, I can’t. I pick these things back up, but only get props for taking the blame, for knocking over something clean when … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Circles

A spinning box of rainbow rosepetals, swirling behind eyelids black with night— emotions folding inward, inward, like tired ghosts joining the collective soul. Downsize your dramas—mould like clay, until you are dense, refined and lovely, perfect in impenetrability. These are … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , | Leave a comment

Meditations

December is meditation month! Once per day, err day. I decided to write about each session as well, to give me extra incentive to do it for the full month. The following are my journal entries based around meditation, loose … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Kayak

Paddle through the breaking waves. All is broken blue; shattered water, strewn clouds above. Pierce the final crest; you’re in the clear. You glide. The pull of the sea, the pull outwards. Keep paddling—left, right. You’ll make it to the … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wear

The clothes you love are not the newest, the shiny dresses all in vogue. Your favorite clothes have stood the test of time—they’re worn ragged, they are frayed. They’re no longer here. They get thrown away. My clothes are mostly … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Oblivion and Understanding

In the beginning, we are given an impulse towards life, sent off like spinning tops with an initial velocity and rotation. Like tops, the paths that we carve out through space and time are largely determined by the initial force … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

What is lost?

What is lost? When you are five minutes late, and your friend didn’t mind waiting; When you rush somewhere and in doing so forget about where you already are; When the place you were going to ends up not mattering … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, Mindfulness | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

Balance

Balance has been occupying my thoughts recently, both the physical act of balancing and balance as a metaphor. Balance is stability, awareness, and controlled movement during chaos. We think “Oh, how I should love to live a balanced life.” Eat … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Snippets | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Travellers

To be human is to be hungry. Our life, just like our metabolism, is a perpetual cycle driven by temporary satisfaction. We are born hungry. We find food, and the body digests it, giving enough energy to continue searching for … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged | Leave a comment

Imaginary Distance

Distance isn’t what it used to be. When I was in grade school, living in Alameda, we went on a field trip. It couldn’t have been more than a half-hour drive. One of the chaperones told us that in the … Continue reading

Posted in Snippets | Leave a comment

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance

I read some excerpts that resonated with me last night:  “Mountains should be climbed with as little effort as possible and without desire. The reality of your own nature should determine the speed. If you become restless, speed up. If … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , | Leave a comment

may i

Everything is falling out. Pages in my sketchbook. No more lines or boundaries. But that doesn’t bother me. Eventually I will learn. The month is May. If I ever want to see how many days my streak has lasted, I’ll … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , | 1 Comment

Skeletons

Sometimes when I get too caught up with the weighty beauty of the physical world, becoming breathless, enamored, enraptured, I envision everyone around me as an animated skeleton. I strip away all their flesh and picture a gangly lattice of … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, great, Snippets | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

smd

Time marches inexorably on, and soon I will die. What are the most satisfying things you do in a given day? That first stretch when you wake up? Eating? Taking a shit? Going back to sleep again? I’m here to … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

The Sea at Westcliff

Every day during my senior year of college I would walk along Westcliff Drive. The first thing that struck me was the view—there’s about a mile of exposed cliff face overlooking the Boardwalk, the beach, and the bay between the … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, great | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

The stuff that keeps me going when I’m down—that’s faith.

Posted in All posts | Leave a comment

The Mantra

Every minute of every day I will make the choices which are right for me, and I will not fear the consequences, for I know they are a reflection of my truest self.

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Self-Improvement, Snippets | Tagged , | Leave a comment

Psychic Powers

I want, above all, to have psychic powers. As a matter of fact, I’m convinced that I do, or that I’m on the verge of having them. Think about it: mind control, reading people’s thoughts. Psychics, like Jean Grey from … Continue reading

Posted in Fiction/Creative, Snippets | Tagged , , , , | 1 Comment

Weightlifting Logs

I’ve decided to start logging my weightlifting sessions. Hopefully this way I can share some of my journey, help out other people as they progress with tips of my own, and pose questions about form and diet that I want … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 8 Comments

The Body as Metaphor; Untying Knots

More Thich Nhat Hanh: There is a term in Buddhist psychology that can be translated as “internal formations,” “fetters,” or “knots.” When we have a sensory input, depending on how we receive it, a knot may be tied in us. … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

On Discomfort

There was one major experience in my life that helped turn my perception around. In the summer of 2010, my life revolved around Super Smash Bros. I played every day, listening to music for hours on end and clacking away … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

On Comfort

In Peace is Every Step, Thich Nhat Hanh describes walking meditation: “Although we walk all the time, our walking is usually more like running. When we walk like that, we print anxiety and sorrow on the Earth. We have to walk … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Mindfulness, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Three Simple Rules for Changing Yourself

I can’t say it enough: Say yes to the right things, so no to the wrong things, and do it as soon as possible. This one sentence is a moral compass you can use for the rest of your life. … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Remember this?

Both menial and significant things are worth tackling this way. Chores evaporate, and the big tasks become easier when you don’t give yourself time to worry about them. We all know the logic behind these things: doing things is the … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Non-Attachment

One of the hardest things to overcome when I write is the belief that it won’t be good enough. I’m afraid that whatever words I choose won’t do the idea in my mind justice, that it’ll be disorganized or not … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , | Leave a comment

Creating Positivity: the “Yes” Inside

Awhile ago, when I was slacklining in Santa Cruz, the topic of psychedelics came up. A few people I know took acid and went to a nice nature spot to enjoy themselves. One of them, a friend of a friend … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Balm

Sometimes it seems like the best things are just a balm, which soothes the ever-burning question: “What now?”

Posted in All posts, Snippets | Tagged , , , | 1 Comment

Words I Like

God is a silently beaming benefactor.

Posted in All posts, Snippets | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Consider:

The things that other people say about you when you’re not around is actually Very Important Knowledge and it would greatly benefit your life, if only you could think about it long & hard enough to figure it out.

Posted in Snippets | Tagged , | Leave a comment

Lower Ocean

Our irate neighbor knocked on the door, and I answered. He was furious, coming to complain about the noise we made last night during a weekday party. The kids downstairs from us had slammed the door in his face. I … Continue reading

Posted in Snippets | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

the coziest universe

They make the universe look so comfortable in all the science shows; clouds of dust and gas rumple up like celestial drier sheets while awesome music plays in the background. They present a cosmos that you cannot help but want … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, great, Snippets | Tagged , , , , , | 4 Comments

209

Everybody will do their best to convince you that they’re not a fucking idiot. But don’t worry. They are.

Posted in Snippets | 1 Comment

The Conductor

I’d love to be a train conductor. All the years of training, working long hours at the station, and collecting ticket stubs would be worth it when, on the first night’s route, I would roll through my hometown and blow … Continue reading

Posted in Snippets | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

The world truly belongs to God, for his fingerprints are all over it

So over the last few days, I’ve just been writing out all the ideas I’ve had in my head. I figure it’s good practice! You probably noticed I have a bunch of recurring metaphors: inner fire, scale and patterns, big … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | 1 Comment

The Perma-Stoke

As the years have come and gone, imparting me with new knowledge and experiences, my life’s goal has become increasingly clear: to achieve the elusive perma-stoke. It’s self explanatory. To be perma-stoked is to be stoked as hell, permanently. Take … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Cross-eyed

My favorite point of the view is the too-close, the cross-eyed, where the frame of your own body alters the thing you’re looking at; the uncommon times when you can see yourself in relation to something else. Under the covers, … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Secret

In the bathroom of the house I grew up in, there was a peculiar light fixture. Four or five lightbulbs were mounted on a brass backboard, above the sink and mirror where I saw my reflection each morning. Long glass … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Fiction/Creative | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Highlining and Willpower

I went highlining yesterday, at Garrapata State Park, with a group of good friends of mine. Highlining is probably the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. It’s slacklining, but really high. It involves stretching a piece of webbing between two … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Burying vs Immersion

Whatever I’m doing, I like to immerse myself in it. Sometimes, if I’m in a particular mood, I’ll bury myself. Although they both imply focus, they’re not the same! One is like swimming around underwater, and the other is like … Continue reading

Posted in All posts, Self-Improvement | Tagged , , , , | 4 Comments

Uncorking

It feels like I have way too much pent-up energy these days. Emotions are bottled away, and I’ve gotta uncork them. This blog in particular exists in a weird place in my mind. Everything I’ve written so far has been … Continue reading

Posted in All posts | Tagged | Leave a comment